then in the freefall I will realise,

I'm better off when I hit the bottom.



HELLOOO to people from the other side of the planet ;D
haha just checked my blog visitors and found more people from the US read my blog than in Malaysia. teehee. not that i mind.

30 minutes passed.

i don't know what to write.

oh yeah, how about my 'ambition'? ;p

"Anis, what do you want to be when you grow up?"

i'm pretty sure that question was asked to me more than once. and to a 7-year-old, only common jobs were known. doctors. lawyers. teachers.
so i just go with the flow and said i want to be a doctor. and so does half of the class. HAHA.

over the years, i've said i want to be a teacher, radio dj, stewardess, and even Burj Al Arab room cleaner. HAHAHA. because i would never afford to stay in that hotel, so at least i'd get to work there and lay down on the bed for a while. ;p
just kidding.

my perfect job would be ;
-a job i must enjoy doing
-i'll actually look forward to go to work, instead of dreading to go to work like most people (hahaha)
-NO work that i have to bring home to finish it. i want to watch tv at night [important]
- two words ; lotsa $$$$$


it's not that hard to find that job right?? ;p
sigh these days to even find a job is hard enough.
wth? i'm 17 and worrying it's hard to get a job. lawl.

i'm interested in taking journalism in university/college.
being a journalist. or editor. anything have to do with writing. because that's the one thing i think i can do great. *cough*cough*
okay my writing skill still sucks, what's with all grammar mistakes and narrow not wide vocabulary x_x

i want to work in a publishing company. magazine or newspaper. i think it's fun. well, based on what i see on tv at least.(ugly betty, the devil wears prada)
haha.

well, that's the plan but who knows what i'll end up doing. maybe i would end up teaching biology in high school. HAHAHA.
that SO won't happen. xp

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anyway a shoutout to @leeyokeshan , @daniellehooo , @sheenasidhu , @lizzieradcliffe. i stayed up chatting on msn and laughing in front of the computer like an idiot till 4.30am with these girls. ;)

we're the BEEFIANS. (inside joke)


don't you just hate inside jokes when you're not in the 'inside'? ;)

so darken your clothes or strike a violent pose.

photography session last week. very tiring. brought my camera along but didn't snap that many pictures.


lmao.



preview how our class picture would look like


pictures so blurry. blame abu.


poor chanchai.

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anyway, my parents finally admitted they read my blog.

dad : 'i dont want to read but your mom asked me to'

yeah right.

i dont think i've ever written about my parents. maybe here and there.
dear mom and dad, if you really want to know what i think about, dont read my blog or twitter or facebook. nothing 'juicy' you can find. look in here ;



actually NO, DON'T read it.
i don't write everyday, but quite often. even brought this to my asrama.
oh fun times writing my thoughts and feelings. even wrote some really bad poems. hahaha.

if you ever made me cry, your name is in it.
if you ever made me laugh really hard, your name is in it.
if i had a crush on you, your name is in it. more than once. ;)
if i hate you so much, your name is in it.
i write when i'm angry, pissed, sad, happy. any emotions possible.


i promised myself i wont't read it until i'm 25 ;)
it'll be fun to read what i wrote when i'm hormonally unbalanced. haha.
my handwriting is really bad though.



i want to be famous. if i die then this journal would be auctioned and co$t million$. haha.

this time, next year.

i didn't go to school today.

i realized this year would be the last year my parents would come to my school and get my report card.

this time, next year, i won't be wearing school uniform and laughing at an hao's jokes, getting sleepy in bio class, conduct cool chemistry experiments, doing ujian SEGAK, gossiping with abu,mus & alin long after recess, and hearing choon kit said 'stand up,class!' anymore.

i realized i 'celebrated' my one year anniversary at smk ideal heights, but there won't be a second anniversary.

i was naive to think my best friends would be as excited as i am to get together and catch up with each other.

When SPM is still 5 months away, you haven't seen your best friends for ages, spending two hours with them won't effect your SPM result.

i forgot it's me who said 'i'll be there for you' to her, not the other way around.

i learned if you miss someone, and they don't miss you back as much, it hurts.

when your best friend had a crush on someone she thought was nice but turns out to be a jerk, you said 'you deserve better and he's an ass for doing this to you' instead of 'i knew from the start he's a player and how the heck could you have a crush on him??'

when something good happened to you and you think of someone you immediately want to share the news with, that someone means a lot to you but you didn't even realize it.

i don't open up to people and i don't expect you to do the same. but if you do, i'll listen. then maybe i'll open up to you too. or maybe i won't.
"Sometimes people put up walls, not to keep others out, but to see who cares enough to break them down." ;)

it's okay to rock out with david cook songs when your heart is with david archuleta ;D

i should've come to school today.

this time, next year, i'll flashback to my school days and praying i'd get to wear school uniform and laugh at an hao's jokes,be sleepy in bio class, conduct cool chemistry experiments, do ujian SEGAK, gossip with abu,mus & alin long after recess, and hear choon kit said 'stand up,class!' for one last time.


what i've been doing all day ;


nope, that's not nail polish.
that's sharpie ;)

i hear you whisper across the sea.

i don't think anyone realizes this, but it's my ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY at SMK Ideal Heights last week! Woohoo. ;D

my experience at this school, hurm, the discipline very teruk wan. haha. no offense. i mean other classes la, our class sure tip-top. *cough*cough* and i think i say the word 'shit' more now after going to this school. hahaha. the teachers are okay, some gave us too many homeworks, some never give any.

my classmates, hurm, some VERY crazy, some crazy, some quiet(including me haha), only few normal people. xD

to alin;
sayang you! you talk a lot, (somehow i'm always close with someone who loves to talk) and whenever i miss my asrama days i can talk about it with you. :) :)

to alicia;
my neighbour and fellow david archuleta & kris allen fan ;D important : I WANT TO GO TO YOUR WEDDING. IF YOU DIDN'T INVITE ME, I WON'T EVER FORGIVE YOU. and you still owe me. hahaha. if kris allen comes to malaysia, make sure you find a way to win the tickets xD

to sonel;
the class would be sunyi without you ;D i'm sure you'll get in the YES program so if you go there and meet your host family, say hi to them. LOL. and update your blog more often. xp

to hasnul;
i will get higher marks than you in english one day! *determined* ;p

to abu;
ABUYONCE! love being friends with you! ;) DON'T EVER SLIM DOWN K! and when the heck are we going to watch transformers ni?? aiyoo.

to mus;
love being friends with you too! you're one of my male friends that watch one tree hill. yay. ;D still won't forgive you for leaving me stuck with hasnul and mei han the other day ;p haha jkjk. forgave you already. eh, plan to go for the idol gives back still on tau. xD

to yen lin;
don't be so nice la! i really want to see you get angry or yell really loud at someone. haha. that'd be like #53 on my 'THINGS TO SEE BEFORE I DIE' list. LOL

to kangkang;
thanks for the gossip girl episodes ;)

to an hao;
i (or anyone else for that matter) would never be as crazy as you! haha. and i would never forget how you can turn a girly and sweet song to a dirty song. xD

to aqil;
thanks for at least speak to me this year. haha. and can you PLEASE tell those stupid morons who smoke in the bus not to smoke?? ugghh by the end of the year i might get lung cancer you know. x_x

to everyone else;
i'll miss you all even though nobody would miss me ;D three years from now they'll probably like 'Anis who??' but i dont mind. i get it. ;D

to the teachers;
jasamu akan ku kenang sehingga akhir hayatku. ;D



GROUP HUGS! (since we can't really 'group kisses'. haha)

shake the glitter off your clothes now.

this holiday only, i've watched 5 movies at the cinema!! YES. MISSION ACCOMPLISHED. xD

1) Terminator Salvation
with my family.
bored. half-man half-robot is kinda hot though. haha.


2)Night at the museum 2
with my mom and my brother.
ok la. the first one is better i think.

3) Hannah Montana the movie
with alin and ayu.
cliche, but i'm a big fan of miley cyrus. the songs are awesome. still can't master the hoedown throwdown. xp
Life's a climb... but the view is great.

4) monsters vs alien in 3D
with my sister and my brother.
i'm SO going to watch 3D movies from now. all i keep thinking about was 'technology these days...' haha.
the movie is funny! especially BOB. oh favourite quote ;

Dr. Cockroach Ph.D.: [about B.O.B] You must forgive my friend, but as you can see, he has no brain.
B.O.B.: Turns out, you don't need one. Totally overrated!

i love BOB ! and the president is funny too.
but my all-time favourite animated movie is OVER THE HEDGE. hilarious! so far no movie can top that.

5) 17 again
with hasnul and mei han.
i think zac efron looks cuter in this movie than he is in high school musical. ;D
the movie is great, funny and got some sad scenes.

Ned Gold: [looks at Mike's clothes] What are you wearing?
Mike O' Donnell: This is cool. This is hip. There's a picture of Kevin Federline wearing the exact same thing.
Mike O' Donnell: What are you wearing? You're supposed to show up like a dad, you look like Clay Aiken!

would love to watch this movie again :D

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so went to mid valley yesterday, with mei han and hasnul. honestly, truthfully, not the two person i thought i would go and watch movie with. xD

arrived quite early, around 9.40 a.m., most of the shop still closed. even gsc starts operating at 10 a.m. but, the queue was long already. there was about 15+ people in front of us.
after buying the ticket, ate breakfast at mcd.


been wanting to eat upstairs, finally got to do so. ;D

i should consider being a tour guide, i know the place so well eventhough i was there for about 10 minutes only.

oh on the way back they left me alone in the komuter! shito. the train was really full and only i can get in and so they took the next train. and hasnul sent me a message 'WE WILL MISS YOU'. lmao.

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as you can see i'm reading A WALK TO REMEMBER by nicholas sparks. and uhm, this book is supposed to make you cry. i read reviews saying 'invest in kleenex' , 'just keep your kleenex handy' etc. i really thought i'm going to cry, i didnt bring this book anywhere i go, because i dont want to read this and cry in public. obviously.

but i've finished this book and uh, i didnt even shed a tear. not even lump forming in your throat, you know the feeling when you're about to cry, i dont even feel that. heh. the ending is so predictable. i dont know, maybe i've watched too many movies, i've read too many books, that half-way reading the book, i know the ending already. -.-"

oh but i did cry reading MY SISTER'S KEEPER. that one, not a cliche story, not a predictable ending. so would totally recommend anyone to read that.

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reason why i want to watch taylor swift live
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v9bxXO9fj98

her songs are so relatable. and yes, her voice is not as good live as in the studio, but i like it that way. her voice is.. vulnerable. ;)
and unlike most of the singer these days, she wrote her own songs. i think that's one of the reasons she's so successful. (her album sold more than any singer on the planet(quote from OPRAH) ;D





ps; i DO NOT hate adam lambert. it's just i found the fact that he had a crush on kris allen the funniest and unbelievable-est(haha) news of the year. ;D and the fact that he's gay doesnt bother me at all. i mean, really, you should get your eyes checked if you can't see he's gay from the beginning. xD

pop it,lock it, polka dot it.

had a blast yesterday hanging out with alin and ayu!

me and alin went to mid valley by komuter. wanted to watch hannah montana at 11 a.m. but arrived around 10.45 a.m. and the Q was very long. even in the morning people already started queueing ? so me and alin did something, and we got the tickets. yay ^^, dont ask what 'something' is, it's a little secret. ;)

ayu hasnt arrived yet so alin had to fetch her. i was shocked to see her bertudung! last year we went out and she didnt wear it. good for her! so proud. oh forgot to tell. she's my friend from teknik. dormmates. her bed is right next to mine ;) once i stole her blanket at night, because somehow i was freezing and i saw she didnt use her blanket. hehe.



i LOVE hannah montana. the movie was cliche, but overall quite good.
and i love miley cyrus. dont care what other people said. yeah2 she's full of controversy and all, so what? she's my age, and she makes millions a year. more than your and my mom and dad's salary combined. ;D
so jealous. actually jealous would be an understatement.



and i think she looks really pretty in this movie. i think she hardly wears any makeup. natural beauty.
oh and i like the 'hoedown throwdown', tried to do it but i think there's not a single 'dancing bone' in my body. here, if you want to learn how to do it.

and then we went bowling ! it was full, and we put our names on the waiting list. luckily we waited about 10 minutes only.

AND THE WINNER IS.... ME!
haha. with alin only 1 point behind. ;D
i'm BABY. because at teknik they called me baby, because they're too many Anis. in my dorm only, there's 3 Anis! haha.


it was a close fight between me and alin, ayu was far behind. xD and it was HER idea to go bowling.




luckily we got lane #2, so people didnt see all the masuk longkang shots. xD
but hrm, i think i wasn't that bad, ok i didnt get even one strike, but at least it was 7, 8 everytime. xD

after that we ate at mcd. where else?


mcvalue lunch ! cheap.

we stayed long after we finished eating. hearing stories from teknik brings back the bittersweet memories ;) we laughed like nobody's business ! i miss my dormmates so muchhhhhh. :(
sharing a dorm with 12 other people wasn't so bad. my dormmates were awesome! they're the reason i stayed for about 6 months. if not, believe me, i would've moved out in the first month i was there.

after eating, we went around mid valley ..just walking aimlessly. entered TOPSHOP, looking at ridiculously expensive clothes. i nearly touched a pigskin high heels! O.O i dont know, i think it's the inside of the shoe that made out of pigskin, not the outside. still give me chills everytime i think about it. haha.

about 4.45 p.m. we went to the komuter station and went home. ayu stopped at kl sentral, then she'll go to klang. me and alin stopped at kepong sentral. i've arranged to meet my friend, fatt. we haven't seen each other more than a year. when i saw her i screamed and hugged her!! miss her so much. and you know, when you meet and old friend there's always that awkwardness, dont know what to say. with us, it felt like it was only last week we met and continue our conversation.

seriously, she's the greatest friend anyone could ever have. ;)



now, who wants to watch 17 Again with me?? ;D
want to watch it so bad lah.

5 - 5 = 1

my favourite day is HOLIDAYss!! :) :)

oh finally. holidays, where've you been?? i missed you like CRAZY!! sure you visit me twice a week but seriously it's not enough! i want you so bad. now you're going to stay with me for two weeks. yayyy. but it'll feel like two days only. x_x REALLY hope you can stay longer. :)

FRIDAY, 26 MAY 2009.

0700
arrived at school. i was the first to arrive. haha. sayalah pelajar cemerlang.

0745
gotta go to library. ugh. study physics. last paper. i was thinking of bringing my novel but didnt.
asked alin to tell me the story about mr. physics. too lazy to read. :D

0830
what the heck?! it's only 8.30? so hungryyy!!

0900
gave up studying. went to mus' and choon kit's table. talked about college and the future with mus. wore choon kit's spectacle.

0940
went to canteen. ate nugget. seriously the canteen needs to come up with a new menu. i still wont eat the nasi lemak since i've heard too many 'stories' about it. haha. after eating, had to jaga. uggh.

1020
went back to class. forgot my bag is at the library. went back to get it. extra exercise for today.
more borak. hasnul showed off his ATM card i think, but got the word VOID at the back. which means it's empty. girls, dont go out with hasnul. he's broke.

1115
physics paper 1 started. kang kang was M.I.A. can't tiru her for today. xp

1229
shit, i'm still not sure what's the answer for question 29. asked khairi. :D he said B. i tembak C. whatever.

1230
merdeka!

1310
arrived home. can't breathe in the bus. morons smoking at the back.
online for a while.

1415
tuition.

1630
on the way to selayang mall with alin by motorbike. bonceng belakang her. with no helmet. bibah following behind.

4.35 - 5.15 p.m.
arrived selayang mall. safely. me and bibah went to shoe shop. too many ugly-but-expensive shoes.
went to popular. saw *tut*. shit. it's cheaper than what i bought. not fair.
alin and abu arrived at popular.

me(sambil tarik tangan alin) : jom keluar! aku depressed dan lapar. apakah penyelesaiannyer? MAKAN!

abu : aku suka penyelesaian tu.

HAHA.


me,abu,alin,bibah at mcd. mus arrived a bit late.

abu still waiting for his bigmac.

here's what i eat ! haha

BIGMAC! without veggies cause i dont like 'em! ;D

bibah with her chocolate sundae.

mus and alin queuing.

we eat and laugh A LOT !
they have lots of funny stories so i'm the listener and the .. laugh-er ? haha.
HAD A BLAST hanging out with them!

aboo a.k.a perez hilton of idealheights and alin !

bibah telling a 'funny' story. actually i didnt have ANY IDEA what she was talking about. xD

LOVE this picture! abu covered his face because apprently his face is too expensive. haha. credits to the makcik working at mcd who took this picture.

i realized i have great friends and i should be grateful ;)

to abu,mus,alin,bibah;
LOVE YOU GUYS SO MUCHO!! ;)



*5-5=1 is a super-duper,ultra,mega careless mistake i made in addmaths. mwahaha.

he lost his soul to a woman so heartless.

i changed the song on my blog. somehow makes me feel unfaithful because it's not david's song anymore. haha. anyway i still love him!

i lost my appetite this week. maybe because so tired of studying.

some people eat when they're stressed. some people dont eat when they're stressed.
Bottom line, every person fills this blank differently.
" When i'm stressed, I __________________________."

for me, when i'm stressed i write. but my handwriting is so terrible and sometimes even i can't read it. just pour my heart out. (not literally like davy jones though). sometimes i listen to songs. some people when they're sad, they choose the opposite songs, like rock and rap songs and all that. for me when i'm sad i listen to sad songs la. haha. i want to cry. crying is good for your health. xD

anyway i cried watching this video on youtube. SO SAD and touching.... 99 balloons.
true story. it was on oprah and oprah cried her eyes out after the video ended. and also celine dion if i'm not mistaken. definitely a kleenex moments. i didnt cry when i watch it on oprah but i cried watching it on youtube.

i was so stressed answering the english paper 1 just now. i felt like i didnt breathe the whole 1 hour and 45 minutes. but it was a different story with paper 2. i think everyone took their own sweet time answering it.

so funny when we heard someone screamed (like scream when you're stressed kind of scream) and then seng walks in. as if he was the one who screamed just now. haha. i'm still smiling thinking about it.

anyway i know who will win american idol. here, refer to my previous post ; click.
if i root for you, you're probably not going to win. haha. does that means i should root for adam and so kris would win? haha.

i think quite a lot of people read my blog.. like everyday i checked the 'visitors' on the right and it would increase about 100 +. it doesnt matter though. i'll write and update my blog eventhough no one reads it. but it's definitely flattering when people like and read your blog :) so thank you so much! (ceh perasan lebih.)

the title is from kanye west song, heartless. i listened to the fray's version of it and it's really good too. but i prefer kris' live version of course. hehe. i search for the fray's version on youtube and found nothing. that's when i realized i typed 'the fray HEATless'. hahaha.



ps; i feel like crap and i post all crappy things >.< seriously my blog is getting boring. right, abu?? xp

if there's a rocket, tie me to it.

i should be studying but here i am in front of the pc blogging.

anyway, just trying to keep this post a short one.

- the next three week = suffering. so stressed out. maybe i should try meditating. OHMMM...

nobody looked this cute while meditating! xD

- is it OMM, OHMM, or AUMM? :D :D :D

- i ate spaghetti for lunch and dinner yesterday. and today breakfast. and i'm not even in italy. go figure PREGO.

- if i'm really mad at you, and you know i'm going to call you, set your caller ringtone to any of david archuleta's songs. it'll cool me down a bit. seriously. it works. ;D

- mosquitoes are IN LOVE with my legs.

- i miss my dormmates so much. late-night gossiping, washing the toilet together, going to the dewan makan together, stalking boys..

- i miss my best friends even more!

- i'd still be sleepy even if i drink coffee. maybe i should EAT coffee.

- only now i knew the Kyle XY guy and the guy from Mean Girls were a couple! *faints* HOT but gay. not fair. not fair. read. (scroll down a bit).

- david archuleta & david cook is coming to philippines! buy me the ticket. anyone? xD

- i want to watch '17 Again'.

- why adam lambert has to wear black eyeliner every week??

- 'if there's a rocket, tie me to it' is a song by Snow Patrol. love them!

- i love the fact that david archuleta's birthday is only 2 days away from mine. why la i was too excited to see the world on 26 dec? i should've waited 2 more days. haha. (his birthday is on 28 dec)

- if i throw a birthday party, would you come? :D

- welcome back to school, mus!

at SMK ... uh, already forgot the name. xD
but we're there for the drama competition.

#52

oh yay! didn't even realize this is actually my 52nd blog post. i know it's not , memorable or something. i just can't think of a suitable title. =P

i dont really want to blog about the drama competition. we lost. i was bored, sleepy, hungry. PMS some more. hrggh. we should've used british accent. met taylor lautner look-a-like,(yes pka, taylor is hotter. dont worry. xD) and also there's one french(maybe) guy. who looks like he's in his twenties. haha. but kinda hot. will ask pictures of him from alicia. haha. thanks to deephan(sp?) for taking his pictures. since me and mus failed to be a stalker, had to ask him. heh.

borrowed boon cheong's ipod, which me and mus are like so jakun and really didnt know how to operate that thing. like org asli baru dpt handphone. really. we were 'oooo...' 'camtu ke...' when boon cheong told us how to play the videos and all. i screamed when there was david archuleta's clip video in it. took my breath away everytime. ngehee. what's cuter than david archuleta? david archuleta smiling. hahah.

i took videos..but i dont know how to upload it. can't use the usual usb cable bcoz it's recorded in a tape, not a cd. will try to figure out later.

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had been googling, youtube-ing about david archuleta for the past hours. i know that he likes Thai food, Sara Bareilles(whom i love too), wants Robin Williams to play him if his life was made into a movie, urm, second oldest sibling(like me. yay). doesn't like mathematics,if he could take any celeb to prom he'd choose jordin sparks, has a dog and a goldfish, his high school locker number was 607.

i'm a good stalker ;D
or maybe a good Googler. haha.

"I just want to squish you, squeeze your head off and dangle you from my rear-view mirror." - Paula Abdul to David Archuleta.

L O L.
how extreme.
because he's too cute!! *melts*

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so anyway, i won't go to Borders at times square anymore. dont ask why. x_x

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my dad had just bought an iPhone. i'm hooked. i want one too.

you know once upon a time...

having a handphone, even super bulky one : you're so cool!
then..
having a smaller cell phone : you're so cool!
then..
having a cell phone with colour screen : phewit!
then..
having a cell phone with camera : huiyoo!
then..
having a cell phone with mp3, bluetooth, internet whatever : wah..cun gila!
then..
having a cell phone with touch screen : terrer la!
then..
having an iPhone : mesti kaya org ni. then buat2 x heran but actually jealous.

haha.
i'm just waiting for one day when iPhone become so yesterday. meaning there'd be more more advanced phone than iPhone. but dont know when/what/how it'll happen. i think iPhone is so advance already. but somehow i think japan already have something cooler than iPhone. you know la japanese..

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i didn't go to school on monday. reason? woke up late. ngeheee. my first time really. before this my mom always wakes me up. but now she's away for umrah. i miss her so much =[
anyway, i probably won't go to school this friday because i want to fetch my mom at the airport. yay. xD

i get excited over little-est things. i get ridiculously super excited whenever i go to the airport even though i'm not the one who's going to be in the aeroplane. adrenaline rush. oh our KLIA really is one of the best in the world. other airports i've been to, i was like, huh, is this really an airport? haha. not that i travel a lot or anything..

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ok i accept the fact that i'm a quiet person. pendiam. when i was in form 3, my teacher did this thing, you write your name on a piece of paper, then pass it around to your classmates. your classmates have to write what they think of you@their wish for you(good luck etc) or just anything. but you can't read what other people wrote to that person. for example A can't read what P wrote to H. only H can read what people wrote to him/her.

and quite a few of my classmates wrote i'm a quiet person.

hrm, my family won't ever describe me as pendiam. i'm like, the 'sonel' in my family. xD

split personality? maybe. i can talk non-stop and be so pendiam. i think for people who read my blog and never actually meet me, would maybe assume i'm bubbly, talkative. i AM, but only for limited period of time. haha.

one thing i notice is i always befriend with someone who loves to talk. my best friends(fiqa&gbob), alin, bibah. they always have something to talk about. i can only 'ooohhh' 'ahhhhh' 'really??' or laugh at appropriate time. but i dont mind.

what i do mind is erm, if someone talks about boys too much. ok he's cute, he's ugly, he's funny etc. sometimes i just dont want to know. ok he flirts with you, what's that got to do with me? ok he smiled at you. that doesn't mean he likes you. maybe you got spaghetti sauce on your nose or something.

my brain did this thing where it always remember things i want to forget. for example like embarassing moments or gross pictures. x_x

but i love to talk about cute-boys-you-wont-ever-hook-up-with. like david archuleta, chace crawford, zac efron etc. you know, hot guys that girls all over the world just want to throw themselves at. THAT, i dont mind talking. haha.

maybe i just love to write, not talk. writing is so much easier. i ALWAYS stutter. =.=

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8tv airs american idol season 7, which david archuleta was in it. last night i decided to sleep at 10p.m. something, then wake up at 12.45a.m. JUST to watch him. just to watch his cute face when ryan said he's safe and can take a seat. xD but i overslept and woke up at 1.15a.m. , which david archuleta's turn already passed. so i go back to sleep. sigh.

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i hate watching unrealistic chick flick. for example 'angus, thongs and perfect snogging'. girls in the movies can screw up all they want and still get the hot guy in the end. erm yeah..real life isn't like that. can't there be a movie where the girl didnt get the guy in the end? the guy actually chose the bitch instead of the main heroine? that'd be fun.

fish out of the freezer.

Taylor Swift : "The best thing you can do in school is to not try to be too cool. My friends and I took pride in the fact that we were the weirdest girls at our school. We never fit in with the cool girls because we didn’t really care what people thought. We has so much fun goofing off and being being crazy. We would go out to dinner in our prom dress, accessorized with scarves, fingerless gloves and costume jewelry. Sometimes we’d draw a beauty mark on our faces, wear a tiara and funny slippers. We didn’t care!"



well said.

take it from someone who's hugely successful like taylor swift! her latest album sold more than 2.4 million, #1 on the billboard chart for more than 11 weeks! IN YOUR FACE, joe jonas! =p the jonas brothers didn't even come close! click here if you want to read about it on perezhilton.com.

who would've thought a beautiful girl like her is one of the 'weirdest girl' at school??

i admit i've tried to be cool. heck, every teenager is trying hard to be cool. trying to fit in. why? i dont even know. to be accepted i guess. so girls would wear the trendiest,hippest clothes..guys would have the latest gadget.. just to be the envy of others. luckily schools in malaysia dont have the queen bee like 'the plastics' in mean girls. that would've sucked. (my school anyway. i dont know about other school)

oh and i actually did ask my penpal from US and she said they(the bitchy queen bee and her sidekicks thingy) do exists. guess they're not exaggerating in the movies/tv. ",

as much as the school tried to do the perpaduan or integrasi thingy, it just won't work. (i love saying 'thingy'. haha) we have our own cliques. it's so OBVIOUS. malay with malay, chinese with chinese, etc. but in our class luckily we're a bit integrasi-er than other classes.i dont think i fit in anywhere though in my class. i mean, of course people would thought i fit in with the malay girls in my class(which is only 5 btw including me) but i dont think i do. they love to talk so much and i dont even have anything interesting to say. that's why people would think i'm so quiet. pendiam. or even say i'm sombong(i'm SO not). i.just.dont.have.anything.interesting.to.say. period.

i do love talking about books..movies..tv..which my so-called-clique didnt even know a thing. when i bring a novel, it's so ...ugh.

FAQ - frequently asked questions
buku pasal apa?
-read the freaking synopsis la wei!

best x?
-of course la best. if not why would i still have it in my hand?!

FSS - frequently said statements
aku mmg nk baca tp xde masa
-i guarantee even after spm, there's SO much time, you won't even pick up a book. lame. next excuse!

aku kalau buku tebal camni mmg tersengguk-sengguk baca
-that's why i get higher marks than you in english. =p

kau mmg minatkan baca buku-buku camni
- ddddddddduh , already bright but still want to use torchlight. (sudah terang lagi bersuluh)



sigh. that's why i miss talking with my best friend. oh fiqa,gbob! my life would suck without you. ;) ;)

note to self : gotta find a guy who shares my interest in books. who'll bring me to bookstores whenever i want and never complain. =D
note to future boyfriend : i know how some guys hate waiting for their girlfriend trying on shoes@clothes, so i'd never ask you to accompany me to go shopping, just accompany me to MPH(and IKEA) would do. =D

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sometimes i wonder what would happen, who will i be if i'm a high school student in US. i think i'm going to be either the geek, who brings book all the time (i do bring book everywhere i go) or i can be one of the mean girls too. i think i seriously have a split personality. bitchy on the inside(deeeep inside) and good girl on the outside. looks can be deceiving. ;)

you know, my father did get a job offer in UK, a long long time ago. but he didnt take it because my mom wanted to stay in malaysia. seriously, i went lunatic when i found out about it. WHAT?? you mean i actually get to play with snow? i'll be hella fluent in english and speak in british accent(which i love)?? i get to have an english boyfriend? lol.

instead, i'm stuck here in malaysia secondary school. which sucks. gahhh can't wait for spm to be over.

ps; why do we have to use 'secondary school' ? can't use high school ?? ideal heights high school. lagi cun maa! xD

fish out of water = out of place
fish out of the freezer = uh, fit in but not in the right group. like me. =) didn't make any sense, i know. life makes no sense anyway. *wink*

bla cube.

bla cube = bla³ = bla bla bla
=D

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last sunday me and my family(minus my sis) went to ...



IKEA! oooh i love ikea. i can spend ALL DAY there. and i love the meatballs ;)
it was really crowded ! ikea is having a sale now so no wonder larh. we had to park outside, on the side of the road. tepi jalan. we had to walk a little,, and on the way we passed by the 'pet hotel' or something like that. and i saw this H U G E dog. i'm not even sure it's a dog ! xp it's almost the size of a cow. haha. but it's really cute. dark brown. the owner is not a malaysian though.

so in the end, we spent... RM 905.80.


=D

sadly after shopping, we can't eat at the cafe because the queue is really long. so we ate at McD instead. i've eaten too many bigmac. seriously.

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on saturday night, my best friend,fiqa called me from mrsm..(she's allowed to bring cell phone). and the first thing she asked was about rihanna and chris brown ! ceh. only later she asked about me,my school etc. but i don't mind really... we can talk about anything. and yes, she's a twilighter ;)

i'm proud of her ! she's so clever and pretty too. all the boys in our class in form 3 pretty much had a crush on her. heh. now she's in mrsm..so i miss her a lot. we have a few in common and a few differences.. she likes cheese, i don't like it at all. she talks a lot, me not so much. i make great jokes, she makes lame jokes. xD
no just kidding.

and lots of times, we like different person on tv/movies..like in gossip girl, she likes nate, i like dan. in one tree hill, she's on team peyton, i'm on team brooke. i guess it's a good thing..chances are we won't fall in love with the same guy. =p
what else... and oh, in pirates of the carribean, she's totally in love with orlando bloom, i'm totally in love with johnny depp. did anyone see 21 jumpstreet?? he's like, the 80's version of ZAC EFRON @ ROBERT PATTINSON. he was described as 'teen heartthrob' ! hahaha.



i'm not sure how old Aro is, but when i read the book, i imagine him as Aro. :D :D :D
*Aro is a character in the Twilight series.

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have you listened to britney's new song, If You Seek Amy ? i think it's going to be a hit. i kinda like it. i like the song 'circus'. see, if a hollywood celeb sings a song titled 'circus', there's nothing wrong. it even becomes a hit! but if a singer in malaysia, sings a song titled 'sarkas' , it's WAY TOO FUNNY!! i can't even imagine that. another example is 'rehab', by rihanna or amy winehouse. rehab = pusat pemulihan. now that's a great title for a song.. pusat pemulihan by siti nurhaliza. hahahaha. sure to win juara lagu. NOT.

so back to britney's song.. if you seek amy. read it again. and again. read it faster.
still didn't get it?? well, if you listen the song carefully, it sounds like F U C K me. get it??

if you seek amy.
faster :
if you see k me
F U C K me.

lol i'm really bad at explaining things but just listen to the song and you'll probably get it. =D
anyway, whoever creates that song is strangely genius. i heard it on fly fm one day and it didn't get censored. so parents, beware. you might just corrupting your children without you even knowing it.

xD

click here to listen to the song on youtube

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we should totally do this for our year-end party !! WAAAY better than the 'traditional' musical chairs. but girls with girls and boys with boys lar. nanti meraba-raba pulak. haha. must.CLICK.play !



i'm NOT a jonas brothers fan but this vid is just funny xD

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edit : happy birthday to alicia cheok pei yin ! may all your wishes come true! keep smiling =)


Birthdays are good for you. Statistics show that the people who have the most live the longest. ~Larry Lorenzoni

i didn't PICK my nose, i was BORN with it.

this week passed by SO.DAMN.SLOW.

ugh.

oh i love this post's tittle. i thought it's very funny. xD
found it when i was just surfing the net.



classmate chaos.

as usual before class starts we'd say good morning or selamat sejahtera.. today, at 7.30 a.m. we said 'GOOD AFTERNOON MADAM TAN !' haha. eventhough it's still dark outside. even when miss wong enters the class around 8.15 a.m. we said good afternoon. then miss wong just nods like "ye la, ye la. duduk duduk". then a few seconds she said " eyh good afternoon??" xD apa la teacher ni. she's so cute. reminds me of chibi maruko chan.

dont they look alike?? xD

and sometimes we shout " TERIMA KASIH CIKGUUU !!!" REALLY LOUD. hahah. that always cracks me up. cikgu saadiah had to actually cover her ears. oh we didn't do it this year,,but last year when miss wong enters the class we'd said "good morning miiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiss wong". really long. hahah. even the married teacher we'd say 'miss'. like miss mahes la sometimes. kah3.
what else...hrm forgot already. and yep, (some of) my classmates are crazy.

me and bibah actually bonded with seng and tam as we're in the same group for oral and lisan. they actually do have a sense of humour ! i always see them studying and doing their homeworks.. i thought they're really serious. seng actually likes to sing eventhough he didnt admit it.


cheap.


on...tuesday, i ate yong tau foo (dont know the spelling) with bibah after school. we sat behind this group of girls. ok that was me being nice. we actually sat behind this group of sluts. ugh!! they're so gedik and tegur all the boys.. calling them manja2.. for example nobitaaaa,, duduk la sini... then giggles. EWW. we actually had to change place because i can't stand another second of their gedik-ness. they're not even pretty. seriously. grow up la wei. life is not about chasing boys. do boys even like when girls call them like that? maybe. whatever. i WON'T EVER do that just to catch a boy's attention. the girls sluts looked so CHEAP.
tiga seploh tiga seploh.... aaa pilih pilih. manyak murah.



playboy? L O L


i HATE being a prefect. i have to watch other students eat while my stomach is grumbling. so on thursday i jokingly said to choon kit, " choon kit, lapar la. CEPAT BELIKAN KEROPOK!! " then to my surprise he just nods and walk away to buy it. i tried to stop him and said i was just kidding. a few minutes later he returned with keropok in hand. i was totally shocked ! i didn't expect he would seriously buy it. so terharu.

then i said to kirthiga that choon kit is SO NICE. but then she said something about choon kit is a 'player' or playboy. likes to play with girls' heart,say sweet things etc. she warned me to be a bit careful. i didn't say anything but in my heart i was like "H U H ??? choon kit, player??" it's beyond my imagination. lol.

i like it when i called his name and he replied "ye sayang?"
ngeee. so sweet.
(note to other boys : dont ever call me sayang. seriously, dont.)

of course he didn't mean it la. not only to me but other girls he'd call sayang too. but that doesnt mean he's a player oke! he's just joking.

wish i could have a brother like him ;)


crushcrushcrush.

currently crushing on someone. i want to give you hints but i think alin would know who it is. heh.
or maybe it's not a crush. i like seeing his face. i think he's not taken, but i dont really care. he's just one of the guys i like but not actually want to hook up with. and trust me, it's normal. =)



so that's pretty much how my week went.
my sister is coming back which means i won't get to sleep with plaff. i'll miss you buluz.

iloveyousomuch x 10^1000000

ps;
(american idol)
DANNY GOKEY rocks my socks off. i was jumping up and down alone in my living room when he sings. ;p
he sang hero by mariah carey, such an amazing song, almost makes me cry. he had a tough time,(his wife died a month before he auditions) to reach where he is now, and he deserves to be in the top 12 more than anyone.

still takes my breath away.

school, boring as always. from school go straight to tuition, same like last week. hrm,after tuition, I went to selayang mall with abu, hanis, and bibah! it was so much fun, (of course, with abu around, it was always ..havoc.)

from tuition, I bonceng belakang abu on his motorcycle! I was quite nervous lah. don’t laugh, but it’s actually my third@forth time on a motorcycle. not joking. I was praying before I get on to the motor. on the middle of the street. hah. i dont even have a helmet on my head ! but i'm still alive ! yay.


no trip to selayang mall would be complete without going to Popular bookstore. and guess what I found??

eclipse.and.breaking.dawn.in.paperback. (also, as you can see, twilight and new moon is there as well)

the paperback versions of eclipse and breaking dawn are really hard to find actually. usually only the hardcover is available. or maybe it’s just one of the their strategy, they know how people love twilight and would pay extra to get the books even on hardcover.

I saw the sales assistant is wrapping the books. and the sight of the twilight saga books still takes my breath away. lol how cheesy, but it’s true! I would gasp. and I would take it, read the synopsis for the millionth time. but it’s ok lah, I own the box set, which is quite rare in Malaysia. I’ve checked everywhere but didn’t found it. maybe less than 10 people own it in Malaysia. haha. you know you’re jealous. (anis’ bitch side just came out)

I can’t help but feeling the urge to greet someone holding twilight/newmoon/eclipse/breakingdawn. “you’re reading twilight eh?” (OBVIOUSLY yes, she’s holding the book.) then I would say I’ve finished the forth book already. NOT to show off. just you know, we have something in common..we both obsessed over the same thing.. huhu.

so anyway, to those of you who still haven’t bought this awesome books, get it at SELAYANG MALL now!! I think it’d be gone by..next week. seriously. last week I went to the curve, NOTHING left. only twilight. new moon/eclipse/breaking dawn all SOLD OUT. geez, I didn’t know there’s a lot of twilighters here in Malaysia. I mean, when I saw the movie in cinema, it was full, but not like all those screaming, excited girls in US. like it was just another teen movie that they watch. so I thought it was just so-so here.. turns out I’m wrong I guess.

SO, after popular, MCD! I just order filet coz don’t have enough money. haha. after that I called fiqa, my best friend. we talked and talked. I just follow them that I didn’t realize I’m following them to the carpark, or in this case, 'motorpark'. heh. that’s what happen when you talk to your best friend. 50% we talked about..what else? twilight of coz. duh.

so all in all, it was fun going out with abu and bib. hanis didn’t follow us around, she went to the salon with her friend. so anyway, thanks you guys ! thanks abu for making me laugh all the time and for the latest gossip, just ask abu. he's like, the perez hilton of ideal heights. haha. but not gay of course.

abu : mana dapat beg tu?
anis : dapat free beli seventeen.
hanis : yg beyonce kat cover tu kan?
anis : a’ah.
abu : hah? yang aku kat cover?
alin,anis,bibah,hanis : *laugh hysterically*


if u dont get it, well, it's kinda an inside joke. heh.
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I SERIOUSLY can’t imagine seeing abu’s face on any magazine’s cover.
so thanks a-bu-yon-cé !