bookaholic, earth hour.

my english is getting from worse to way worse. x_x
i'm not 'easy-to-get-jealous-person', but i always get jealous to anyone who can write well. i love writing and i think that's what i do best. ok not best, but i'm pretty good at it. i think i'll never be good at physics, or bio. or even bm. xp i think i've loved english since i was in standard 5..the teacher(which is my friend's mom) was really good and since then, i was hooked.

oh i remember the first english novel that i read : DATING GAME by DANIELLE STEEL
and the book was kinda good. though i dont think it suits my age at all. i think maybe my mom or my aunt who would read this kind of book. it was about a woman who just got divorced from her perfect marriage, 24 years of marriage in fact. then her husband falls in love with another woman he met at work(cliche). but i tell ya, i cried when i read the FIRST CHAPTER of the book! now that's something. i rarely cry when i read, it takes a lot for me to reach out for my kleenex when i'm reading..so it's pretty something to even cry reading the first chapter.

or maybe i was overreacted,'terlebih feeling' when i read it. =P

see what i mean? how good writer,story-teller just know how to play with the readers' emotions? i'd love to do that. i want to write something that makes people cry, laugh, think, angry at certain character, root for certain character. unfortunately i dont think i've reach that level yet. but one day i will. =)

the one book that makes me cry the hardest was... FOR ONE MORE DAY by MITCH ALBOM. there's a movie adaptation of that book, but i dont recommend anyone to watch it. it sucks. it didnt do justice to a wonderful book. the book is just . .. haih just pick it up and read la. like i've said before, i suck at explaining things. i've read another book by mitch albom, THE FIVE PEOPLE YOU MEET IN HEAVEN. and i love it as much. it's totally a page-turner, you always want to know what will happen next. and the similarities between these two books were something unexpected at the ending. and the way the author delivers it, it felt as if he's reading it to me. that sounds corny isn't it? =p i dont know how to explain it, but he made me think. the writing style is simple yet the meaning is so deep.there's a lot of quotes that i like in the book.

i've borrowed another book by mitch albom, TUESDAYS WITH MORRIE and my dad said it's a great book. but i can't read two books at once, so gotta finish the devil wears prada first. i dont know about anyone else but i can't read when there's music in the background. so i always have to switch off my radio first, then read. most of the time, followed by sleep. =D not because the book is boring, but i always read before i go to sleep.. =) it's kinda became a routine now. even when there's exam, i'll still read my novel.

i gotta have my own room now! before this i shared a room with my sis. i dont really mind sharing a room, but she always want to switch off the light early. i still want to read my novel! so now after months of renovation, i have my own room. yay me! my room is a bit smaller than my last room, but it's ok. my room's theme is black,gray and red. originally wanted black, white, red but white is too common. (blackwhitered coz it's the colour of the twilight saga books' cover :D :D)

so i have my own book shelves now..(used to share it with my sis). gotta move my books to my own room. so here are my books!

^ BOOKS I'VE READ. ^
yellow circle - Cecelia Ahern :)
blue circle - Chicken Soup for the soul books

^ BOOKS I HAVEN'T READ :D ^

lebih kurang sama banyak . haha.
i thought i have quite a lot of books, but after i've arranged it on the book shelves i think i dont have that many books... but hey i'm still grateful. wish i could have more.

twilight box set have it's own shelf. xD

i bought english novels only these days.. i gave up reading malay novels since i was 12. i only read the one for komsas.. i haven't even finished Bukit Kepong. i've read only first chapter of the book. :D i dont think i've finished Panas Salju(F3) either.
some books i bought at warehouse book sale. cost only rm8/10 each if you buy it there. but the warehouse sale is only 3@4 times a year.

favourite books? (not in order)
1)When Rainbows Ends&PS I Love You by Cecelia Ahern.
2)Mitch Albom books.
3)The Makeup Girl by Andrea Semple.
4)My Best Friend's Girl by Dorothy Koomson.
5)Remember Me? by Sophie Kinsella.

and of course
6)Twilight saga by Stephenie Meyer.


i love books that make me cry and laugh(preferably not at the same time :D)

book make me literally laugh out loud:
Two-way street by lauren barnholdt. really funny !

owh in case you've missed my post about books i've read in 2008, you can read it here : clickclick.

i buy magazines too. i used to buy HOT magazine every month, but my mom banned me from buying it because she saw this one picture of paula abdul(i think) with her boobs about to fall out. =p

so i've switched to SEVENTEEN and occasionally CLEO.

only some of it because i brought it downstairs and some are missing. :D

oh and also recently i bought this magazine ONLY because robert pattinson and kristen stewart is on the cover. i think that's the only cover where robert actually looked handsome, most of the time he looks like he didn't bath for a week. hahah

yeah in case you haven't seen this mag anywhere, it's an australian magazine. turns out this magazine is actually really good ! it's kinda same with seventeen, but better. lots of useful tips and funny stories. it costs rm17.90 though. gulp. i didn't pay for it of course. i asked my mom can i buy this magazine, then she said ok. maybe she thought it was seventeen because after that she said why my magazine is so expensive?? heh sorry mom.

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EARTH HOUR.
i watched KLCC turns off it's light! i was in KL that day so i watched pretty up close. on the way home i can't see where KLCC and menara KL was! it's dark. but sadly lots of shops and buildings didnt turn off its' light. blame them if the world is getting hotter. always complaining about how hot it is, but can't even turn off your light for one hour ah?

took me quite a few seconds to locate menara kl in this pic xD

credit :
first pic : http://www.flickr.com/photos/28634369@N06/
second pic : http://www.flickr.com/photos/abinesh/

While you live it up, I'm off to sleep.

i was so.damn.sleepy at school today. like if someone brings a pillow i would sleep right there and then. i was sleepy because i didnt get much sleep last night. and not because i was studying, i was watching one tree hill. LOVE that show since season 1. i love the ending quotes ;

"Sometimes when you're young you think nothing can hurt you. It's like being invincible. Your whole life is ahead of you and you have big plans. Big plans. Find your perfect match, the one that completes you. But as you get older you realize it's not always that easy. It's not until the end of your life that you realize that the plans you made were simply plans. Because at the end when you're looking back instead of forward, you want to believe that you made the most of what life gave you. You want to believe that you are leaving something good behind. You want it all to have mattered."

awesome huh? :)

it's not because of the hot guys in the show that i watch it,(there's only 2 anyway) it's because the show teaches me a lot about life. and the story is not as cliche as other stories. most people would think it's just another teen drama show, but it's really not. and there are a lot of quotable quotes in the show. seriously, whoever wrote the script must've been through a lot in life.

ok moving on. . .


right now i'm blogging and also watching this movie on hallmark. poor me. i dont have HBO, Cinemax,or any other movie channels. hallmark movies are so last decade. but only a few is good. right now, i'm watching 'Picking up and Dropping off'. that's the title. and the reason i'm still watching it despite it's lame title and cheesy storyline, is because rachelle lafevre is in it!

rachelle who?

she's the one who plays victoria in twilight! and her hair is the same! xD she was 24 years old in that movie. now she's 30. she doesnt change much,really. she plays the sister of the main character. and i was just thinking, maybe victoria lives like this before! who knew, huh? :D we didnt know much about victoria's background, but obviously she was once human. now i'm watching it because in my mind, it's victoria before she became a vampire. :D :D
oh btw her character's name is georgia in this movie.

and rachelle was also on CSI last week. i'm not a fan of CSI, only watch it because i dont have anything else to watch. turns out she's in it!


that's all for now. geez today is really hot !

++ i still haven't bought the twilight dvd because it'll be available only on 24 march onwards. shito. oh i hate Borders staff. a few of them. obviously not all


title : lyric from Use Somebody, Kings of Leon.

bla cube.

bla cube = bla³ = bla bla bla
=D

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last sunday me and my family(minus my sis) went to ...



IKEA! oooh i love ikea. i can spend ALL DAY there. and i love the meatballs ;)
it was really crowded ! ikea is having a sale now so no wonder larh. we had to park outside, on the side of the road. tepi jalan. we had to walk a little,, and on the way we passed by the 'pet hotel' or something like that. and i saw this H U G E dog. i'm not even sure it's a dog ! xp it's almost the size of a cow. haha. but it's really cute. dark brown. the owner is not a malaysian though.

so in the end, we spent... RM 905.80.


=D

sadly after shopping, we can't eat at the cafe because the queue is really long. so we ate at McD instead. i've eaten too many bigmac. seriously.

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on saturday night, my best friend,fiqa called me from mrsm..(she's allowed to bring cell phone). and the first thing she asked was about rihanna and chris brown ! ceh. only later she asked about me,my school etc. but i don't mind really... we can talk about anything. and yes, she's a twilighter ;)

i'm proud of her ! she's so clever and pretty too. all the boys in our class in form 3 pretty much had a crush on her. heh. now she's in mrsm..so i miss her a lot. we have a few in common and a few differences.. she likes cheese, i don't like it at all. she talks a lot, me not so much. i make great jokes, she makes lame jokes. xD
no just kidding.

and lots of times, we like different person on tv/movies..like in gossip girl, she likes nate, i like dan. in one tree hill, she's on team peyton, i'm on team brooke. i guess it's a good thing..chances are we won't fall in love with the same guy. =p
what else... and oh, in pirates of the carribean, she's totally in love with orlando bloom, i'm totally in love with johnny depp. did anyone see 21 jumpstreet?? he's like, the 80's version of ZAC EFRON @ ROBERT PATTINSON. he was described as 'teen heartthrob' ! hahaha.



i'm not sure how old Aro is, but when i read the book, i imagine him as Aro. :D :D :D
*Aro is a character in the Twilight series.

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have you listened to britney's new song, If You Seek Amy ? i think it's going to be a hit. i kinda like it. i like the song 'circus'. see, if a hollywood celeb sings a song titled 'circus', there's nothing wrong. it even becomes a hit! but if a singer in malaysia, sings a song titled 'sarkas' , it's WAY TOO FUNNY!! i can't even imagine that. another example is 'rehab', by rihanna or amy winehouse. rehab = pusat pemulihan. now that's a great title for a song.. pusat pemulihan by siti nurhaliza. hahahaha. sure to win juara lagu. NOT.

so back to britney's song.. if you seek amy. read it again. and again. read it faster.
still didn't get it?? well, if you listen the song carefully, it sounds like F U C K me. get it??

if you seek amy.
faster :
if you see k me
F U C K me.

lol i'm really bad at explaining things but just listen to the song and you'll probably get it. =D
anyway, whoever creates that song is strangely genius. i heard it on fly fm one day and it didn't get censored. so parents, beware. you might just corrupting your children without you even knowing it.

xD

click here to listen to the song on youtube

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we should totally do this for our year-end party !! WAAAY better than the 'traditional' musical chairs. but girls with girls and boys with boys lar. nanti meraba-raba pulak. haha. must.CLICK.play !



i'm NOT a jonas brothers fan but this vid is just funny xD

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edit : happy birthday to alicia cheok pei yin ! may all your wishes come true! keep smiling =)


Birthdays are good for you. Statistics show that the people who have the most live the longest. ~Larry Lorenzoni

... is a five letter word.

death.
death is a five letter word.

i was reading 'the truth about forever' by sarah dessen.
macy's father is dead and she's there when her father died. she saw it.
have u ever received a news so shocking that it takes a moment to take in , and your body just went numb? you dont break down. just...numb.

that's what macy felt. and the author describes it so perfectly..the grieve. how the people around her cried..and she felt the necessity to stay strong and put on a smile. in some ways, i can relate to macy..

or maybe not. maybe because the author is so good that i felt i'm in her shoes. =B

macy's sister want to reinvent their beach house. because "that's what dad would've wanted".
we should move on with our life "because that's what he would've wanted".

and then i wonder. if i die, would someone knows what i want? would anybody say "that's what anis would've wanted"? =| does anybody knows me that well? well hopefully someone knows. cause i want a twilight-themed funeral. no just kidding.

i think i'd donate my organ.

haha very funny anis. you're afraid to even donate your blood. what more your organ.

well, you're dead right ? you can't exactly feel the pain.. better to collect the pahala till the laaaast moment you can...

why am i talking about death??



oh right. because it can happen anytime. and some people forget that.

still takes my breath away.

school, boring as always. from school go straight to tuition, same like last week. hrm,after tuition, I went to selayang mall with abu, hanis, and bibah! it was so much fun, (of course, with abu around, it was always ..havoc.)

from tuition, I bonceng belakang abu on his motorcycle! I was quite nervous lah. don’t laugh, but it’s actually my third@forth time on a motorcycle. not joking. I was praying before I get on to the motor. on the middle of the street. hah. i dont even have a helmet on my head ! but i'm still alive ! yay.


no trip to selayang mall would be complete without going to Popular bookstore. and guess what I found??

eclipse.and.breaking.dawn.in.paperback. (also, as you can see, twilight and new moon is there as well)

the paperback versions of eclipse and breaking dawn are really hard to find actually. usually only the hardcover is available. or maybe it’s just one of the their strategy, they know how people love twilight and would pay extra to get the books even on hardcover.

I saw the sales assistant is wrapping the books. and the sight of the twilight saga books still takes my breath away. lol how cheesy, but it’s true! I would gasp. and I would take it, read the synopsis for the millionth time. but it’s ok lah, I own the box set, which is quite rare in Malaysia. I’ve checked everywhere but didn’t found it. maybe less than 10 people own it in Malaysia. haha. you know you’re jealous. (anis’ bitch side just came out)

I can’t help but feeling the urge to greet someone holding twilight/newmoon/eclipse/breakingdawn. “you’re reading twilight eh?” (OBVIOUSLY yes, she’s holding the book.) then I would say I’ve finished the forth book already. NOT to show off. just you know, we have something in common..we both obsessed over the same thing.. huhu.

so anyway, to those of you who still haven’t bought this awesome books, get it at SELAYANG MALL now!! I think it’d be gone by..next week. seriously. last week I went to the curve, NOTHING left. only twilight. new moon/eclipse/breaking dawn all SOLD OUT. geez, I didn’t know there’s a lot of twilighters here in Malaysia. I mean, when I saw the movie in cinema, it was full, but not like all those screaming, excited girls in US. like it was just another teen movie that they watch. so I thought it was just so-so here.. turns out I’m wrong I guess.

SO, after popular, MCD! I just order filet coz don’t have enough money. haha. after that I called fiqa, my best friend. we talked and talked. I just follow them that I didn’t realize I’m following them to the carpark, or in this case, 'motorpark'. heh. that’s what happen when you talk to your best friend. 50% we talked about..what else? twilight of coz. duh.

so all in all, it was fun going out with abu and bib. hanis didn’t follow us around, she went to the salon with her friend. so anyway, thanks you guys ! thanks abu for making me laugh all the time and for the latest gossip, just ask abu. he's like, the perez hilton of ideal heights. haha. but not gay of course.

abu : mana dapat beg tu?
anis : dapat free beli seventeen.
hanis : yg beyonce kat cover tu kan?
anis : a’ah.
abu : hah? yang aku kat cover?
alin,anis,bibah,hanis : *laugh hysterically*


if u dont get it, well, it's kinda an inside joke. heh.
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I SERIOUSLY can’t imagine seeing abu’s face on any magazine’s cover.
so thanks a-bu-yon-cé !

one of those days

Great.

now that i've posted something bout me crying, lots of people gonna think i'm sensitive, a crybaby. IT'S OK PEOPLE !! YOU CAN HURT ME..I WON'T CRY ! =] i won't cry in public when you say you want to break up with me to hook up with that slut over there..you'd get free gift though, a slap or a kick. you can have both if you want ;)

haha no just kidding la. just kidding bout the second part..i really won't mind if you said you want to break up with me.i won't cause a scene.. plus, it's a real gentleman of you. most guys would break up over the phone or just text message bout it. eeekk.

anyway, stop talking@writing bout boys. they're SO not worth talking bout. *evil laugh* when girls get together, somehow 'boys' always ended up in the conversation. geez. STOP IT girlfriends. seriously. as for me,


UNLESS YOUR LAST NAME IS CULLEN, I'M HONESTLY NOT INTERESTED ;)

for right now anyway. you can't keep clinging to the hope of edward cullen do exists.


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today i experienced one of those (really rare) days where everything turns out as planned.

first i eat at school. alone. i must've looked like one of those lonely girl who doesnt have friends.. so pathetic. huh. i thought of going to tuition straight from school..but i dont want to go to tuition in my school uniform..yikes. i dont have any transport to go to tuition so gotta get a taxi.. luckily there's a LOT of taxi in my school area.

i went back home, luckily the pakcik can wait for me to change my clothes and get my books. then asked him to drive me to tuition. in the end, the fare cost rm8.20.

today went to sejarah class..for trial only. just to kill the time..haha. my mom would fetch me at 6.45 p.m. ..the class ended at 4.15. aiyarks. no money left if i want to go back by taxi. anyway sejarah class is fun as always..not like it's my first time going to mr shiva's class. hrm.

oh, before the class started, we just hang around in front of the class.. nothing to do except talking. bla3. there's this guy who wore his school uniform..so of course the school's badge is there. i was like, 30 cm away from him and trying to read the name of the school on his badge. i saw SMT .. i thought, "oh. teknik ?" then i went closer just to make sure. hahaha. he must've thought " apa kena lak dak ni?? skodeng aper??" haha. but he didn't do anything la..maybe didn't notice me squinting my eyes trying to read his school's name. kikiki.


I'M A MENTOS-ADDICT. MENTOS-HOLIC.
seriously, everytime i go to tuition, i would buy mentos. my favourite is BERRY BLAST.. well that's the only flavour that i like. =p




yawn. it's 0104 now. gotta sleep. nowadays i always feel sleepy and tired..but i just can't sleep. probably i'm thinking too much about ..stuff that i shouldnt worry bout. sigh.

Relationship 101 with Anis

brandi carlile - the story

i was having my PMS moments... but i'm ok now. =D
so i've been 'composing' this post in my head for the last few days..since i can't online often coz of the homeworkSSS. loads of it. i want to write bout the whole girls and boys thing..relationship ,couple thingy. blame the hormones. really. lol.

so urm, read on.
it's kinda long..but it's worth reading.
i may have accidentally reveal my secret here and there. oh well.



CRUSH.
seriously, who didnt develop a crush(or crushes) when they're teenagers are seriously unhealthy. haha. even the quiet, demure one probably had a crush on someone. they just won't admit it. sometimes i ask my friends "ada suka sapa2 x?? juz ckp ya atau tak je. bkn nk tau saper pun" and they answer would be yes.
last week i think, i write bout i have a crush on this boy,, but now the feeling fades. it's normal la. at first "eee he's so hot/cute/handsome la !" but the next minute "eww he's SO not my type".

i'm the kind of girl who develops a 'crush at first sight', but the next day wondering what the hell did i see in him.

LOVE.
aahh, this overrated thing. i used to think love is overrated, but in the movies they do make it like it's SO magical, so enchanting etc that people actually want to believe it exists. we all wanna believe in true love. we all wanna believe in happily ever after. but then again,it's in the MOVIES/TV. people can make up pretty much anything. aliens, superheroes, animals that talk,.. just name it. it's there.

one thing that i learned from the US movies/tv and books, when a person said 'i love you',the other person HAVE to say it back(if he/she do love her/him lar.) "Me too" is not accepted. gotta be "i love you".(or anything that means much more than that la. in twilight when bella said 'i love you', edward replied 'you are my life now'. that counts. =D )

if not, that means the other person just doesn't feel the same way. they could be a couple,girlfriend and boyfriend but haven't said i love you yet ! can u believe it ?? they make it look like those three words mean so much. if u dont mean it, DONT say it.here in msia, all those puppy love, baru jumpa seminggu, couple, ckp i love you. EWW. they make it look SO CHEAP. i dont want that.

right now, at 16 years and 1 month old, i officially haven't been in love.i mean like, c'mon, we're just a teenagers. what do we know bout love?
dirty little secret; i've said i love you to someone but dont actually mean it.

i was googling some things and hey hey, what d'ya know, even robert pattinson never been in love.
click here to read bout it.



BROKEN HEART.
ok so here's the thing. as i wrote earlier, i've never been in love(but pernah couple, which i didnt like at all). so i definitely did not suffer from a major heartbroken. yet. (the minor heartbroken happens a lot, for example seeing johnny depp already have a girlfriend. haha)
but still, sometimes, i want to know how it feels. i've read and see how painful,.. how depressed someone is,.. when they're heartbroken. for example last tuesday, i watch ONE TREE HILL, peyton is totally crushed when she knows lucas proposed to lindsey. talk about action speaks louder than words. i can't even imagine how it feels to be in peyton's shoes. it's so cliche when peyton said to lucas to be happy and she'll sacrifice her feelings and all that..but i still cry ! i was rooting for brucas, which in season 5 WILL NOT happen at all, but seeing leyton like that..sigh. the producers sure know how to make the fans wanting more. if lucas and peyton get married, then what ? it'll be pretty boring..

so back to the whole heartbroken thing, yeah i want to be heartbroken. i know, weirdo. a normal person surely wont ever wish that. but hey, there's lessons to be learnt later right? we'll make better choices..we'll be more careful to choose our partner.. but the thing is, if i want to be heartbroken, i have to 'give' my heart to someone else right ? that's the hardest part coz..it's hard for me to trust someone. and also hard coz . . .

ok ok i admit i fell in love with jacob too when i read breaking dawn..he's funny !
but still, edward rules ! *team edward*


so erm,anybody who's really good at hypnotizing me to give my heart away and return it back to me in pieces, do contact me.



FRIENDS WITH YOUR EX.
i strongly believe a girl and a guy can be friends without any feelings attached. but being friends with your ex? i dont think so. i just laughed whenever i read celebrities couple who broke up and said 'we remained to be good friends'. c'mon la, who are u kidding? u've probably delete his/her number in your mobile phone. i like this quote,

If two past lovers can remain friends, either they were never in love or they still are.

and that exactly what happens. i'm 'kinda friends' with my ex coz i'm....never been in love with him. heh. sorry hun, i never felt that way bout you.so i guess that's why people dont want to date their friends..mainly coz it'll ruined the friendship. if it ends well, ok la. if it ends badly? i dont think things will be the way it is when they're still friends. it'll be awkward.


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I KNOW when i look back and read this..maybe 5 or 10 years from now i would laugh and think how immature i was. but hey, that's part of being a teenager.. being crazy and carefree.. trying so hard to be cool.. bla3.

so that's all for now. hope you had fun reading. heh.
i know you probably won't do this, but do drop a comment !
sayonara~ !