Relationship 101 with Anis

brandi carlile - the story

i was having my PMS moments... but i'm ok now. =D
so i've been 'composing' this post in my head for the last few days..since i can't online often coz of the homeworkSSS. loads of it. i want to write bout the whole girls and boys thing..relationship ,couple thingy. blame the hormones. really. lol.

so urm, read on.
it's kinda long..but it's worth reading.
i may have accidentally reveal my secret here and there. oh well.



CRUSH.
seriously, who didnt develop a crush(or crushes) when they're teenagers are seriously unhealthy. haha. even the quiet, demure one probably had a crush on someone. they just won't admit it. sometimes i ask my friends "ada suka sapa2 x?? juz ckp ya atau tak je. bkn nk tau saper pun" and they answer would be yes.
last week i think, i write bout i have a crush on this boy,, but now the feeling fades. it's normal la. at first "eee he's so hot/cute/handsome la !" but the next minute "eww he's SO not my type".

i'm the kind of girl who develops a 'crush at first sight', but the next day wondering what the hell did i see in him.

LOVE.
aahh, this overrated thing. i used to think love is overrated, but in the movies they do make it like it's SO magical, so enchanting etc that people actually want to believe it exists. we all wanna believe in true love. we all wanna believe in happily ever after. but then again,it's in the MOVIES/TV. people can make up pretty much anything. aliens, superheroes, animals that talk,.. just name it. it's there.

one thing that i learned from the US movies/tv and books, when a person said 'i love you',the other person HAVE to say it back(if he/she do love her/him lar.) "Me too" is not accepted. gotta be "i love you".(or anything that means much more than that la. in twilight when bella said 'i love you', edward replied 'you are my life now'. that counts. =D )

if not, that means the other person just doesn't feel the same way. they could be a couple,girlfriend and boyfriend but haven't said i love you yet ! can u believe it ?? they make it look like those three words mean so much. if u dont mean it, DONT say it.here in msia, all those puppy love, baru jumpa seminggu, couple, ckp i love you. EWW. they make it look SO CHEAP. i dont want that.

right now, at 16 years and 1 month old, i officially haven't been in love.i mean like, c'mon, we're just a teenagers. what do we know bout love?
dirty little secret; i've said i love you to someone but dont actually mean it.

i was googling some things and hey hey, what d'ya know, even robert pattinson never been in love.
click here to read bout it.



BROKEN HEART.
ok so here's the thing. as i wrote earlier, i've never been in love(but pernah couple, which i didnt like at all). so i definitely did not suffer from a major heartbroken. yet. (the minor heartbroken happens a lot, for example seeing johnny depp already have a girlfriend. haha)
but still, sometimes, i want to know how it feels. i've read and see how painful,.. how depressed someone is,.. when they're heartbroken. for example last tuesday, i watch ONE TREE HILL, peyton is totally crushed when she knows lucas proposed to lindsey. talk about action speaks louder than words. i can't even imagine how it feels to be in peyton's shoes. it's so cliche when peyton said to lucas to be happy and she'll sacrifice her feelings and all that..but i still cry ! i was rooting for brucas, which in season 5 WILL NOT happen at all, but seeing leyton like that..sigh. the producers sure know how to make the fans wanting more. if lucas and peyton get married, then what ? it'll be pretty boring..

so back to the whole heartbroken thing, yeah i want to be heartbroken. i know, weirdo. a normal person surely wont ever wish that. but hey, there's lessons to be learnt later right? we'll make better choices..we'll be more careful to choose our partner.. but the thing is, if i want to be heartbroken, i have to 'give' my heart to someone else right ? that's the hardest part coz..it's hard for me to trust someone. and also hard coz . . .

ok ok i admit i fell in love with jacob too when i read breaking dawn..he's funny !
but still, edward rules ! *team edward*


so erm,anybody who's really good at hypnotizing me to give my heart away and return it back to me in pieces, do contact me.



FRIENDS WITH YOUR EX.
i strongly believe a girl and a guy can be friends without any feelings attached. but being friends with your ex? i dont think so. i just laughed whenever i read celebrities couple who broke up and said 'we remained to be good friends'. c'mon la, who are u kidding? u've probably delete his/her number in your mobile phone. i like this quote,

If two past lovers can remain friends, either they were never in love or they still are.

and that exactly what happens. i'm 'kinda friends' with my ex coz i'm....never been in love with him. heh. sorry hun, i never felt that way bout you.so i guess that's why people dont want to date their friends..mainly coz it'll ruined the friendship. if it ends well, ok la. if it ends badly? i dont think things will be the way it is when they're still friends. it'll be awkward.


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I KNOW when i look back and read this..maybe 5 or 10 years from now i would laugh and think how immature i was. but hey, that's part of being a teenager.. being crazy and carefree.. trying so hard to be cool.. bla3.

so that's all for now. hope you had fun reading. heh.
i know you probably won't do this, but do drop a comment !
sayonara~ !