I'm not lucky, I'm blessed.

This is just a quick post letting everyone know I'm still alive. And happy belated new year, I realized I didn't even tell you guys that. No I did not make any New Year's resolution. And happy Chinese New Year. And.. what other celebration did I miss? Happy Valentine's Day. Wait, no, that's next month.

I'm SO SORRY I haven't updated in a while! I'd say I'm really busy with college and my TOEFL exam (which is true) but the fact of the matter is, I'm just lazy. There I said it. (Also, I got 101/120 for my TOEFL, which is more than enough to meet the minimum requirement of most US universities, which is 79! Alhamdulillah.)

This is the first post I've made in 2012 and I can't even make it an epic one. But I do want to say 2011 has been an incredible, amazing year for me, as all of you probably know.

I was listening to a Nicki Minaj song and the lyrics goes, "I'm not lucky, I'm blessed." THAT'S IT! That's what I am; blessed. A lot of people, left and right told me how lucky I am to win these contests and going to New York etc. And oftentimes I just don't know what to reply other than an awkward thank you. Okay luck definitely played some role here but 'blessed' is the,.. concrete definition of the things I've had the opportunity to experience.

Of course I've shed a few (or maybe a lot) of tears in 2011. But that doesn't matter. The good things that came my way have totally, totally eclipsed the bad things that happened.

If anything, I'm looking forward to 2012. (Now I realized these things were supposed to be said on maybe the first week of January, not the END of it. But oh well.) If everything goes right, I might just go to the USA again, this time to study. A LOT of people assumed I'm going to pick New York. Don't get me wrong I'm in LOVE with New York and forever will be; I'll always look at the pictures taken there with these, longing in my eyes and heartache because I just want to be able to teleport there whenever I want.

But I just, don't want to go there to study. I don't even know why! Honestly. I've asked myself the same question over and over. Maybe I don't want to, over familiarize myself with it, so that it'll always stay as this magical, faraway city where dreams come true. So.. yeah.

I actually thought of doing a vlog to make the first post of 2012 extra special but I hate hearing my voice on video and what more seeing my face and it's just a total weirdsauce so I didn't.


Here's to an awesome leap year! I would know all about leaping, because I was born on 1992 which was the year of the monkey according to the Chinese calendar. Holla.



ps; I still haven't even written part 4 and 5 of my New York post (though at this point not like anybody cares).

pss; And YES I'd never stop bragging about the fact that I went to New York. Ever. If you talk to me in real life I WILL bring it up in a conversation. (Okay not really. Not all the time but if I feel like talking about it, I probably will..)