fu·ture (fy
ch
r)n.1. The indefinite time yet to come
2. Something that will happen in time to come
The future.
Just thinking bout that makes my stomach lurches.I'm sure when you're in Standard 1, or in primary school, the teacher would ask "what do you want to be when you grow up?" I remember whenever someone asks me that question, I don't have any answer. Sometimes I would follow what my friends would say. Teacher, doctor, lawyer..the common answers.
And then as time goes by, most of my friends already knew what they wanna be when they grow up. As for me, I'm still confused, still stumbling on what to decide what i wanna be. We're talking about what you wanna do, what you're stuck with for the rest of your life here. Surely it's something you'd take time to think.
Sometimes i felt a pang of jealousy. They're so sure on what to be, so sure of what they wanna do, and I want that feeling. The feeling of knowing, somehow the future is secured. Deep down in their heart they know they'll make it work.
That was then. Now i can proudly say i know what my future would look like. Okay i dont have a 20/20 vision of my future (heck, NOBODY does. even alice cullen =D) but i know the path to get there. It's like you've found a map, but the road ahead isn't so clear. It's hazy, cloudy, you can't make out what's out there. The journey won't be easy, that's for sure.
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Last week, our sivik teacher asked us to think, where do you see yourself in 10 years time. Wow. 10 years? that means when i'm 27 years old? Aiyarks, so tua mehhh ??
So one by one my classmates tell their stories. Some that i remember ; she wanted to open a bakery/cake shop. He wanted to be a movie star and receives an Oscar, which i dunno if he's joking or not. lol. And other guy said he wanted to get married at 60 - which the whole class laughed so hard. And then, HE, the genius-est in the class, [he got 12A1 last final exam] said so confident what he wanted to do. I can't remember exactly what he said, but he sounds so sure that we all know he's sure as hell gonna achieve that. I'm so jealous at that time. =t
As i look around the class, i wonder where would I see them in 10 years. On the front page of The Star, discovering the cure for cancer? Being an astronaut? Or on television, on OPRAH for writing a world-wide bestseller novel? Who knows?
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Yesterday i went to the STAR EDUCATION FAIR. just to know what's my option after spm and all that. Quite a lot of people [it's still early around 11 a.m. i'm sure it's getting crowded by the minute]
I want to do journalism and i read on seventeen, Taylor's College is the college to choose. I went to TAYLOR'S UNIVERSITY COLLEGE's booth. The staff there started explaining things. . . and i'm so nervous. i'm not prepared, i didnt do any research before going there so of course i can't came up with any questions to ask, though i know when i go back home i'll have plenty of questions.
Each booth have its own representatives..giving out brochures/fliers.. i got so many of them! why can't they give out cookies??? i'm so hungry at that time lol.
But seriously, looking around the hall ..i'm scared. Not scared as in i-want-to-get-out-from-this-rumah-hantu-NOW or watching a horror,scary movies. Scared as in the-future-is-so-close-PLEASE-help-me kind of way. Somehow i wish i could postpone "the future" for a little bit of time. sigh. it's a mixture, really. scared..but also excited to explore the world. to explore what's out there. and also finding myself, what i really like to do and what i don't like to do.
so here's some pics !
STAR EDUCATION FAIR ROCKS !!
where i want to further my studies :)
Que Sera, Sera,
Whatever will be, will be
The future's not ours, to see
Que Sera, Sera
What will be, will be.
Future huh?
Hold on tight, it's gonna be a bumpy life.
The future.
Just thinking bout that makes my stomach lurches.I'm sure when you're in Standard 1, or in primary school, the teacher would ask "what do you want to be when you grow up?" I remember whenever someone asks me that question, I don't have any answer. Sometimes I would follow what my friends would say. Teacher, doctor, lawyer..the common answers.
And then as time goes by, most of my friends already knew what they wanna be when they grow up. As for me, I'm still confused, still stumbling on what to decide what i wanna be. We're talking about what you wanna do, what you're stuck with for the rest of your life here. Surely it's something you'd take time to think.
Sometimes i felt a pang of jealousy. They're so sure on what to be, so sure of what they wanna do, and I want that feeling. The feeling of knowing, somehow the future is secured. Deep down in their heart they know they'll make it work.
That was then. Now i can proudly say i know what my future would look like. Okay i dont have a 20/20 vision of my future (heck, NOBODY does. even alice cullen =D) but i know the path to get there. It's like you've found a map, but the road ahead isn't so clear. It's hazy, cloudy, you can't make out what's out there. The journey won't be easy, that's for sure.
----------
Last week, our sivik teacher asked us to think, where do you see yourself in 10 years time. Wow. 10 years? that means when i'm 27 years old? Aiyarks, so tua mehhh ??
So one by one my classmates tell their stories. Some that i remember ; she wanted to open a bakery/cake shop. He wanted to be a movie star and receives an Oscar, which i dunno if he's joking or not. lol. And other guy said he wanted to get married at 60 - which the whole class laughed so hard. And then, HE, the genius-est in the class, [he got 12A1 last final exam] said so confident what he wanted to do. I can't remember exactly what he said, but he sounds so sure that we all know he's sure as hell gonna achieve that. I'm so jealous at that time. =t
As i look around the class, i wonder where would I see them in 10 years. On the front page of The Star, discovering the cure for cancer? Being an astronaut? Or on television, on OPRAH for writing a world-wide bestseller novel? Who knows?
----------
Yesterday i went to the STAR EDUCATION FAIR. just to know what's my option after spm and all that. Quite a lot of people [it's still early around 11 a.m. i'm sure it's getting crowded by the minute]
I want to do journalism and i read on seventeen, Taylor's College is the college to choose. I went to TAYLOR'S UNIVERSITY COLLEGE's booth. The staff there started explaining things. . . and i'm so nervous. i'm not prepared, i didnt do any research before going there so of course i can't came up with any questions to ask, though i know when i go back home i'll have plenty of questions.
Each booth have its own representatives..giving out brochures/fliers.. i got so many of them! why can't they give out cookies??? i'm so hungry at that time lol.
But seriously, looking around the hall ..i'm scared. Not scared as in i-want-to-get-out-from-this-rumah-hantu-NOW or watching a horror,scary movies. Scared as in the-future-is-so-close-PLEASE-help-me kind of way. Somehow i wish i could postpone "the future" for a little bit of time. sigh. it's a mixture, really. scared..but also excited to explore the world. to explore what's out there. and also finding myself, what i really like to do and what i don't like to do.
so here's some pics !
STAR EDUCATION FAIR ROCKS !!
where i want to further my studies :)
Que Sera, Sera,
Whatever will be, will be
The future's not ours, to see
Que Sera, Sera
What will be, will be.
Future huh?
Hold on tight, it's gonna be a bumpy life.
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